Please don't ask about commissions

I was hoping nobody would but someone has approached me about them. I am technically writing it now because of them but they haven't bothered me and I was meaning to write this anyway.

I honestly feel shitty about the whole thing, in fact I nearly cried. I have had commissions closed since last Summer. Not surprisingly despite my profile clearly saying that commissions and art trades are closed, people approached me about them.

I first thought I'd open them at Christmas, but I got time consuming homework. I didn't even attempt to say they were open at Easter because I knew I'd get time consuming homework, I was right.

I then told people to wait for the Summer holidays, but guess what? I got really time consuming homework. To put it into perspective, I only finished it last week. I'm not saying this entire Summer was homework, but also consider that I went on holiday, I went on days out, I had to do more chores and as you've all seen recently, I've had to make gifts for friends, I participated in the contest etc.

I feel like I've really disappointed myself and I feel like I let people down, especially the people who have been really patient. I didn't go to the gym, I haven't even achieved any game goals. I wanted to try to finish Super Paper Mario or Paper Jam or even fight Bowser X but no. But my biggest disappointment and one that I won't live down is not opening commissions.

I'm not saying don't ask me about commissions just because it's a bother, I am genuinely upset by this. If anyone else asks, I'm just showing them this journal. I can't even answer the question of when I will next open them anymore...